i am not good at loving--
i prefer
deserving
serving
(disappearing
which i can't, here,
sitting in frayed jeans and no lipstick
in these pews)
so:
here
among the jcpenneys
jcrews
the high heeled shoes
the collared shirts
the sportcoats
tasteful ties:
here
i will
sit, not raising hands
green joy imploding
not weeping
seeping like cutrate meat
(picked up/abandoned
by some SNAP mama whose
unmannered and undaddied kids
tear into their unpurchased candy bribes)
seeping, and stinking
in the clean packaged ranks
of skinless freerange chicken breast
Offensive!
(offended) --
Bleeding,
here
i sit, i consider
myself
(i am not good at loving)--
i am
beside
among
together --
oneanothering with these
cleaner, other
souls of Yours
