body

i am not good at loving--

i prefer
deserving
serving
(disappearing

which i can't, here,
sitting in frayed jeans and no lipstick
in these pews)

so:
here

among the jcpenneys
jcrews
the high heeled shoes

the collared shirts
the sportcoats
tasteful ties:
here

i will
sit, not raising hands
green joy imploding

not weeping

seeping like cutrate meat
(picked up/abandoned
 by some SNAP mama whose
unmannered and undaddied kids
tear into their unpurchased candy bribes)
seeping, and stinking
in the clean packaged ranks
of skinless freerange chicken breast
Offensive!

(offended) --
Bleeding,
here

i sit, i consider
myself
(i am not good at loving)--

i am
beside
among
together --

oneanothering with these
cleaner, other
souls of Yours